I know I am not the only one.
Loneliness and isolation have been my companions for most of my life—these feelings of not knowing where I belong, or if I even do. But deep down I know that there has to be someone who understands.
I’ve also had an unrelenting yearning to find purpose on this planet, while not really knowing if there's meaning to life at all. I can tell you now that even after all my years of researching and soul searching—I still don't know.
I have some ideas, yes, but I’ve come to peace with the fact that no one knows for sure. Maybe it is all meaningless— or maybe life only has the meaning that we choose to give it. If that’s the case, then what meaning am I choosing to give my life? Along these same lines, if I truly have no purpose, and if the only point to me being here is to choose my own way of life—what will I decide? If no one is here telling me how to live my life, how will I spend my days? What will I do, and who will I be?
All I really know what I see...
What I see on this planet is a whole lot of darkness and chaos—people walking around this world lonely, confused, angry, frustrated, and scared. I see people disconnected from peace and love. I see people overwhelmed by the endless, grueling system this world puts them through. I see people depressed and brokenhearted—imprisoned with addiction and toxicity of all different kinds. I see people that are struggling in stress and survival mode, and because of that they make unconscious decisions. These actions are often detrimental and they impact everything - all the people and creatures on the Earth and the planet itself. There are some major problems out there, to say the least.
Again, I don’t know the answer to solving all of life’s issues—not even close. And I’m also not pretending that I am perfect, because I know full well that I am part of the problem too. I’ve lived in fear and stress for most of my life and it’s hard to create a different way of living. But I guess the first step is acknowledging this, and wanting a change—having the heart to want to be better than I was yesterday. And I do. I want to be less afraid, and more loving. I want to be less stressed, and more at peace. I want this inner fire and bliss to fill me up so much so that it overflows to everyone around me. I want to be the change I wish to see in the world.
I want to continue to tune into my alignment (inner being, inner guidance system etc.), for I know when I do, I feel better. And when I feel better it makes me want to tune in again. When I tune in over and over again, I find that I start living in a more righteous way. I know that when I'm living from alignment consistently, my words, actions, and decisions will benefit everyone. I want to surrender my thoughts, my words, my gifts, and my energy to be given for the best possible outcome of all. I want to be part of the positive shift in this world—and again I know I’m not alone.
I know that this power that is inside of each and every one of us is more than enough to create lasting impact in our lifetime. One person remembering who they are, and stepping up on their platform (no matter what that looks like), can create many wonderful things in the world, and can inspire many others to do the same. One person waking up to their true inner light and power can spread like wildfire, igniting every heart and mind it touches.
Lighting up the world through love—if I have a purpose here at all, this is what I choose. Love is not just rainbows and butterflies. It's a radical fucking force that has the ability to break someone out of a state of darkness and slavery so profoundly that they now walk in complete and total freedom. We need more of that, I think.
Again, I don’t know anything for sure (and I don’t think anyone really does), but I really like the idea that there are some people who are here on this planet, at this time, who have decided to act as “earth warriors,” using their inner light to help raise the vibration of the planet and ultimately help create a whole new world—one where people make better decisions, are more kind to each other, have more respect for the Earth, and feel free to be their true selves.
I know I’m not alone in this idea. Every time I find another light worker/earth warrior, it doesn’t matter if we just met—one look into each other's eyes, and we know we are one and the same. Family. Tribe.
There could be absolutely no meaning to life at all. Even if that's the case though, I’m still going to spend my time like this—embodying and expressing myself through this love force that pulses through my veins. This is the purpose I choose…how about you?
~Sarah
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Note From Me:
*As I reflect back on experiences I’ve had throughout my life, I find that it brings me great joy to put them into words - to voice what I’ve been through, and to also express any insights learned from each one. Sharing stories seems to satisfy this inner yearning to leave my mark - and at the very least, it always leaves me feeling lighter and more true to myself. So that is why I write, and my intention is to uplift, entertain, and maybe even inspire others to share their own experiences with the world. We all have a story.
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